To Munch or Not to Munch...

I've recently become a member of a group that offers monthly munches at a restaurant quite close to me. I almost went once, but in the end decided not to. I know what you must be thinking. Why would fiery Emily be afraid to do that? Or anything for that matter? Well...let me let you in on a little secret in case you didn't already know. I'm actually a big wimp!

I get nervous in new situations. I worry what people will think of me, a sub, showing up all alone at a munch. I wonder about other's perception of how this may appear. Especially as I am uncollared and unescorted. Certain friends of mine hjave advised it may not be a good idea. Others have said, Go for it! So I'm a bit confused as to the proper etiquette there.

I want to go, and perhaps for the reasons that everyone else who will be attending wants to go. First of all I cannot believe that there is a group of 542 individuals in my area who are all members of a group related to my particular kink. It ought to be incredibly interesting. And secondly, I would very much like to meet like minded individuals with whom I can discuss the ins and outs, ups and downs, and side to side of this thing we all do. But mostly, I would very much like to make some new friends.



hello...my name is Emily..

Lately I have closed off a lot of my options for various reasons. My separation being the primary one. And I didn't really leave much room for new ones. I didn't exactly kneel down and light the torch to the bridges behind me, but they were burned all the same. It constantly surprises me how many people are invested in a marriage besides the husband and wife. But when you decide to end that marriage, a lot of people suddenly show up and share their two cents about what you are doing. Especially friends. It's as though your separation has suddenly made THEIR lives much more difficult and how dare you not consider them before you jumped ship?
So, perhaps new friends are in order. Even if they are friends I will only see once a month. Unless of course I meet a few who like shoe shopping. Then  of course I will see them much more often!

I understand how very vanilla a munch is. It's not like a spanking party. I'm fairly certain the establishment where this particular one is taking place would frown on that a bit. But all the same, imagine taking all your secrets and writing them on your forehead, then walking into a crowd of strangers! Scrutiny, raised eyebrows, questions....goodness. It is a bit daunting. But then again, I suppose theirs will be written there as well. So that at least makes it balanced.



guess wearing this is out of the question...

A good friend is really encouraging me to go, but to use caution. She thinks I ought to keep my options as wide open as the sky, because I just never know what's going to happen. I've listened to her advice, but tempered it a bit as well. It's true I never know what's going to happen, but I'd like my options to be a bit more narrow than the wild blue yonder. Maybe about the size of a wedge heel.
I'll let you know tomorrow what I decided. The event is this evening, so I have an entire day to weigh some pros, some cons. Funny thing about those though. It seems every time I feel the need to make a list of them, even if the cons outweigh the pros, I end up simply listening to my heart.

Emily